evil me 

let me bleed out the evil me
to even the score    
to make you feel better  
on the inside & in my head  
so you could believe  
that I don’t envy you
underneath the surface  
of gray withered
uprooted landscape  
going all out  ...
alluding me to follow. 

just like the crowded clouds in the sky  
rejecting the claim in my story
so I chew on silence while I’m postponed  
maybe I’ll be slain by you tonight  
via poisoned kiss ...

so I turn to redemption  
& to love god is escaping you  
and to love you is death without god  
and my naivety loves you more ... 
all this because I stole a combined moment of us  
hid it in these pages to tell myself that I was o.k.  
that I shall tailor my skin to fit your needs  
crucify my lips a symbol of redemption  
that I won’t confess this love to anyone but you

I shall let the evil I bleed out on a crazy horse  
galloping towards my cave,
ignoring the crowd cheering
in the nosebleed section along the way ...

captivated chain-less
immortalizing shadows  
all innocence,
compared to you ...
everything is going all out  
to cover me from the anguish
of the turning days  
to bleed me out